Vheissu

My good buddy Jon Leubert(say it 'Lou Bear) lent me a cd of a band that I sort of knew of. Just to keep you in suspense, I won't tell you what the band is. But I like it. Nice blend of sounds and noise and such. The title might give you a hint.

So I've wanted you get my thoughts down pretty much all weekend, but there was never anytime. And, as it always is, once you finally get to where you can put them down, they flee like rabbits, holding their little white tails high over their heads, mooning you as they scurry away. Oh, to be a rabbit.

Do all you remember that little board game called settlers? Well, it gets more complicated. One of my friends turned old, so people gave him presents to make him feel better. Particularily, an addition to settlers that deals with something that pertains to knights. You thought the original settlers was crazy? Oh man, they add three more resources, calling them commoditties. Pretty much upgraded resources, used for upgrading a whole new unheard of set of things. Aquisition of these commodities is through cities. Remember how a city got you two resources? Well, brick and wheat still work that way, but for the other three, you get one of the resource and one of the commodity. And there's more, but as long as you can play settlers, you should be good at the rest. Explains why I failed....

Alright, a few weeks ago I went to this men's breakfast at the church (and let me tell you, These guys know how to eat! Eggs and sausage and pancakes and poridge and such. Where does poridge come from anyway?) Oh and it was April fools day, because they put sausages in the poridge. Don't think I'm spelling that right. Oh well. Anyway, there was this guy talking from a tv(he was recorded from a promise keepers thing from a long time ago) and he said lots of cool stuff, but the one thing I remember was that he said something to the sounding like 'it only takes one man to start a revival'. And if we want to go with this stupid political correctness, one woman would do too. But that was implied wasn't it? Yeah, so that gives each and every person a higher thing. I don't want to say calling, because I don't think that is what it is. But it made me think that if any one of us can start crazy world changing things just by living for God...

Let's go back a little. David- Shepard boy. Youngest of 7 or something crazy like that. Became one of the most renowned kings of all time. Moses- Just some lucky guy really, who God set aside. So that's a tad different, but he still lived for God. His face came to shine with a brilliance that was not his own. Or how about Elijah? He did amazing things, but was it his fault? What did he do some that those became done? Elisha too. So he had a double portion of the same spirit, but still. And then, we get to a different type of astounding life style with Hezekiah and Josiah. Did not all of these people change the times around them? Yet, it was hardly them.

How did they then life to become like that, because that's where I'd want to be. I found something else pretty cool...At least, it adds to the changing mind...

"Jabez was more honorable than his brothers. His mother had named him Jabez, saying, "I gave birth to him in pain." Jabez cried out to the God of Israel, "Oh, that you would bless me and enlarge my territory! Let your hand be with me, and keep me from harm so that I will be free from pain." And God granted his request. "
1 Chronicles 4:9-10

It almost seemed to not belong. I don't know what the prayer rules are, but this one didn't seem to match up to what I thought they were. Shows how little I know. But it allgoes together somehow. I want to be someone whose life does more than just come and go. Maybe I'm not a leader in the way some others are. Another reason I miss Rob a tad, is because we had some really good talks. Maybe they weren't very often, but when they came...He likes to analyze things. To figure them out. I don't care so much. But even if I did, it's still hard to look into a mirror and figure out what's looking back at you. He helped me figure out how I work a little. And that probably contribute to figuring out what that guy is the miror is supposed to be. Now, I know what I want him to be. But nobody ever changed anything by living their own lives. Not really true, but do you get what I'm trying to say?

I know someone who can do it better, but where to go so he can have the controls? One step at a time though. If change happened too fast, nobody would know which way was up.